NOT A Teacher Appreciation Post

Because you specifically said that you did NOT want us to make you one. So, I’m not. I’m just making a post on my personal blog that just happens to be very appreciative of all you do for me…

You listen to my rants and let me get everything off my chest. You let me talk and rant and don’t just nod along thinking, “She’s nuts!!!” Well… at least you do a good job of hiding it. You make learning fun and simple (except for those darned rhetorical strategies…) and always make my B-days that much better. And although I might not be the best writer in the class or the smartest student in the class or even the most witty, you give me the confidence that I can pass the AP exam and I will (with a 3 at the least ). I really am glad I had you as a teacher again this year and although this may be my last year with you as my language arts teacher, you can bet that you’ll be seeing plenty of me next year and hearing more than enough from me once I’m gone off to college.

They say that the people we meet in life change who we are, how we look at things, and who we become. Back in 8th grade, December 2nd, 2008 (my first day in class), I would never have guessed I would become the girl I am today. I was awful at grammar and spelling. Whenever I said a word with more than two sylllibles Averi took a moment to pause and applaud. I was quiet and I never (ever ever ever) would have thought a teacher could be anything more than someone who made you laugh in a classroom and taught you things. Most teachers I’ve had before moving here were all like that. Your friend in the classroom and an adult that has no connection to you what-so-ever outside of that room. You’ve changed all that. You’ve shown me that you can reach out to a teacher for help. You can just have a conversation with a teacher and have it be a person to person conversation and not a student to teacher-overlord-scary-authority-figure-who-will-tell-your-parents-everything-you-say.

You’re a funny, entertaining, and inspirational teacher. You allow a lot of us to open doors we didn’t even want to touch and guide us through to the other side. I keep thinking about at the end of last year. I was going to take regular 12th grade language arts and you told me to “march to the office right now” and change my schedule. And now… just days away from the AP Language and Composition test… I have no regrets and I am so thankful that you told me to do this (although I am still wildly nervous and scared I’m going to get a 2…).

“I may think some of your assignments are ridiculous and that you are insane but you are my all time absolute favorite teacher.” (http://zmacseyerollers.wordpress.com/2011/05/03/teacher-appreciation-2011/)

And it’s still true,

Zoey

– Good luck with your new son and just a side note… 2 kids = 10 dollars an hour… just saying

Still in the Book of Psalms

The Psalms are amazing and my favorite book in the Bible, just before the Proverbs. They almost consume you with their sorrow and anguish but somehow, they manage to bring out this absolute calmness and bliss within me and it’s just so amazing. It is completely indescribable the relief and happiness my heart experiences when reading these passages. And, it is really amazing how these Psalms were written hundreds upon thousands of years ago and yet STILL they ring true. STILL they connect and touch readers just as if someone had written it yesterday. STILL they cause tears to flow down your cheeks as you feel in your heart that God is watching over you and just knows.

Psalm 22
To the chief Musician upon Aijeleth Shahar,
A Psalm of David.

1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?
why art thou so far from helping me, and from the
words of my roaring?

2 O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest
not; and in the night season, and am not silent.

3 But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the
praises of Israel.

4 Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and
thou didst deliver them.

5 They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they
trusted in thee, and were not confounded.

6 But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of
men, and despised of the people.

7 All they that see me laugh me to scorn: they
shoot out the lip, they shake the head, saying,

8 He trusted on the LORD that he would deliver
him: let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him.

9 But thou art he that took me out of the womb:
thou didst make me hope when I was upon my
mother’s breasts.

10 I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art
my God from my mother’s belly.

11 Be not far from me; for trouble is near; for
there is none to help.

12 Many bulls have compassed me: strong bulls of
Bashan have beset me round.

13 They gaped upon me with their mouths, as a
ravening and a roaring lion.

14 I am poured out like water, and all my bones
are out of joint: my heart is like wax; it is melted in
the midst of my bowels.

15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and
my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast
brought me into the dust of death.

16 For dogs have compassed me: the assembly of
the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands
and my feet.

17 I may tell all my bones: they look and stare
upon me.

18 They part my garments among them, and cast
lots upon my vesture.

19 But be not thou far from me, O LORD: O my
strength, haste thee to help me.

20 Deliver my soul from the sword; my darling
from the power of the dog.

21 Save me from the lion’s mouth: for thou hast
heard me from the horns of the unicorns.

22 I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in
the midst of the congregation will I praise thee.

23 Ye that fear the LORD, praise him; all ye the
seed of Jacob, glorify him; and fear him, all ye the
seed of Israel.

24 For he hath not despised nor abhorred the
affliction of the afflicted; neither hath he hid his face
from him; but when he cried unto him, he heard.

25 My praise shall be of thee in the great
congregation: I will pay my vows before them that fear him.

26 The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall
praise the LORD that seek him: your heart shall live
for ever.

27 All the ends of the world shall remember and
turn unto the LORD: and all the kindreds of the
nations shall worship before thee.

28 For the kingdom is the LORD’S: and he is the
governor among the nations.

29 All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and
worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow
before him: and none can keep alive his own soul.

30 A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to
the Lord for a generation.

31 They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness
unto a people that shall be born, that he
hath done this.

1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?

2 O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.

There are times in our lives when we feel as though God has forsaken us. Life is what we view as rock-bottom and there is nothing that we can do to stop the torture and no one that will help us… we cry our hearts into our pillows, or in the words of Psalm 6, “make I my bed to swim.” No matter how hard or loud we seem to cry, it feels like he never hears. I was asked by a very trusted friend of mine, “What keeps you strong? What makes you not go home and cry your heart into your pillow everyday?” I, jokingly responded, “That’s the weekend.” But in all reality, what keeps me strong, what keeps me waiting for God to support me and save me from my life, is the thought of a young girl. She is poor and heart-broken. She is left out on the streets. She cries to the Lord and needs him despirately. More than food. More than water. More than life. I have a roof over my head. I have friends that deeply care about me. I have a future. I have time. This girl, in my mind, doesn’t. Although I cry hard, it is not as hard as her. My tears do not fill oceans.

4 Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them.

5 They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded.

6 But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people.

“But I am a worm.” This is an extremely powerful line. David sees that the people before him and around him need only to call to God and they are delivered. They are saved by God’s grace. David, however, can cry as loud as he wants. He is just a lowly, worthless worm. A disgusting creature damned to hide within the Earth for it’s salvation and protection. God loves mankind. God made mankind in his image. Not the worm. Not him. There are times when everyone feels lowly and pathetic. Like we are nothing but a worm forced to roam the Earth waiting for death with no salvation. No purpose.

10 I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother’s belly.

Most people are born into their religion. I, myself, have a mother that is a Latter-day Saint (Mormon) and a father that is Roman Catholic. I was blessed a Latter-day Saint as a baby, and then Baptized a Roman Catholic at age 10. I – for the most part- was raised Roman Catholic. As you can tell from my attachment to the Bible and latching to it when I am hurt or scared.

14 I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint: my heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels.

15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death.

 Have you ever just cried so hard that you feel absolutely drained? You cannot even stand you are so exhausted with life. Your eyes sting and are heavy. There is this hallow feeling within your chest, where your heart and soul belong. Then, comes the anger. Suddently your body is filled with new strength built from hatred. Where does this new power come from? From the Devil? From Man? I don’t know. But your body is completely consumed and you swear and you hate and you blame. You blame God. Why did he cause this? Why isn’t he helping me? WHY HAS HE FORSAKEN ME? I was taught by a book once that God causes all – good and evil. He causes us greif because He has to. Not like Job where he made a bet with Satan and caused him pain (I never did like that book…) but pain that will help us to become the people we need to be to fulfill the purpose He has intended for us.

21 Save me from the lion’s mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the unicorns.

 This one is, of course, in reference to the lion’s den that David was cast down into. However, I do not understand the second half… “for thou hast hear me from the horns of the unicorns.” If anyone could elaborate on that one, please feel free to comment below or talk to me. I really just do not understand it…

The Tears of God

Again, I am re-reading through the psalms. I wanted to post some of the ones that really reached out to me (Other than, Psalm 38)

Psalm 6

 ¹O LORD, rebuke me not in thine anger, neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure.

 ²Have mercy upon me, O LORD; for I am weak: O LORD, heal me; for my bones are vexed.

 ³My soul is also sore vexed: but thou, O LORD, how long?

 ⁴Return, O LORD, deliver my soul: oh save me for thy mercies’ sake.

 ⁵For in death there is no remembrance of thee: in the grave who shall give thee thanks?

 ⁶I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears.

 ⁷Mine eye is consumed because of grief; it waxeth old because of all mine enemies.

 ⁸Depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity; for the LORD hath heard the voice of my weeping.

 ⁹The LORD hath heard my supplication; the LORD will receive my prayer.

 ¹⁰Let all mine enemies be ashamed and sore vexed: let them return and be ashamed suddenly.

Psalm 14

 ¹The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.

 ²The LORD looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, and seek God.

 ³They are all gone aside, they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

 ⁴Have all the workers of iniquity no knowledge? who eat up my people as they eat bread, and call not upon the LORD.

 ⁵There were they in great fear: for God is in the generation of the righteous.

 ⁶Ye have shamed the counsel of the poor, because the LORD is his refuge.

 ⁷Oh that the salvation of Israel were come out of Zion! when the LORD bringeth back the captivity of his people, Jacob shall rejoice, and Israel shall be glad.

Psalm 35

 ¹Plead my cause, O LORD, with them that strive with me: fight against them that fight against me.

 ²Take hold of shield and buckler, and stand up for mine help.

 ³Draw out also the spear, and stop the way against them that persecute me: say unto my soul, I am thy salvation.

 ⁴Let them be confounded and put to shame that seek after my soul: let them be turned back and brought to confusion that devise my hurt.

 ⁵Let them be as chaff before the wind: and let the angel of the LORD chase them.

 ⁶Let their way be dark and slippery: and let the angel of the LORD persecute them.

 ⁷For without cause have they hid for me their net in a pit, which without cause they have digged for my soul.

 ⁸Let destruction come upon him at unawares; and let his net that he hath hid catch himself: into that very destruction let him fall.

 ⁹And my soul shall be joyful in the LORD: it shall rejoice in his salvation.

 ¹⁰All my bones shall say, LORD, who is like unto thee, which deliverest the poor from him that is too strong for him, yea, the poor and the needy from him that spoileth him?

 ¹¹False witnesses did rise up; they laid to my charge things that I knew not.

 ¹²They rewarded me evil for good to the spoiling of my soul.

 ¹³But as for me, when they were sick, my clothing was sackcloth: I humbled my soul with fasting; and my prayer returned into mine own bosom.

 ¹⁴I behaved myself as though he had been my friend or brother: I bowed down heavily, as one that mourneth for his mother.

 ¹⁵But in mine adversity they rejoiced, and gathered themselves together: yea, the abjects gathered themselves together against me, and I knew it not; they did tear me, and ceased not:

 ¹⁶With hypocritical mockers in feasts, they gnashed upon me with their teeth.

 ¹⁷Lord, how long wilt thou look on? rescue my soul from their destructions, my darling from the lions.

 ¹⁸I will give thee thanks in the great congregation: I will praise thee among much people.

 ¹⁹Let not them that are mine enemies wrongfully rejoice over me: neither let them wink with the eye that hate me without a cause.

 ²⁰For they speak not peace: but they devise deceitful matters against them that are quiet in the land.

 ²¹Yea, they opened their mouth wide against me, and said, Aha, aha, our eye hath seen it.

 ²²This thou hast seen, O LORD: keep not silence: O Lord, be not far from me.

 ²³Stir up thyself, and awake to my judgment, even unto my cause, my God and my Lord.

 ²⁴Judge me, O LORD my God, according to thy righteousness; and let them not rejoice over me.

 ²⁵Let them not say in their hearts, Ah, so would we have it: let them not say, We have swallowed him up.

 ²⁶Let them be ashamed and brought to confusion together that rejoice at mine hurt: let them be clothed with shame and dishonour that magnify themselves against me.

 ²⁷Let them shout for joy, and be glad, that favour my righteous cause: yea, let them say continually, Let the LORD be magnified, which hath pleasure in the prosperity of his servant.

 ²⁸And my tongue shall speak of thy righteousness and of thy praise all the day long.

Psalm 42

 ¹As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.

 ²My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?

 ³My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?

 ⁴When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.

 ⁵Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.

 ⁶O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.

 ⁷Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.

 ⁸Yet the LORD will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.

 ⁹I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?

 ¹⁰As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?

 ¹¹Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

Psalm 55

 ¹Give ear to my prayer, O God; and hide not thyself from my supplication.

 ²Attend unto me, and hear me: I mourn in my complaint, and make a noise;

 ³Because of the voice of the enemy, because of the oppression of the wicked: for they cast iniquity upon me, and in wrath they hate me.

 ⁴My heart is sore pained within me: and the terrors of death are fallen upon me.

 ⁵Fearfulness and trembling are come upon me, and horror hath overwhelmed me.

 ⁶And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away, and be at rest.

 ⁷Lo, then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness. Selah.

 ⁸I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest.

 ⁹Destroy, O Lord, and divide their tongues: for I have seen violence and strife in the city.

 ¹⁰Day and night they go about it upon the walls thereof: mischief also and sorrow are in the midst of it.

 ¹¹Wickedness is in the midst thereof: deceit and guile depart not from her streets.

 ¹²For it was not an enemy that reproached me; then I could have borne it: neither was it he that hated me that did magnify himself against me; then I would have hid myself from him:

 ¹³But it was thou, a man mine equal, my guide, and mine acquaintance.

 ¹⁴We took sweet counsel together, and walked unto the house of God in company.

 ¹⁵Let death seize upon them, and let them go down quick into hell: for wickedness is in their dwellings, and among them.

 ¹⁶As for me, I will call upon God; and the LORD shall save me.

 ¹⁷Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.

 ¹⁸He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me.

 ¹⁹God shall hear, and afflict them, even he that abideth of old. Selah. Because they have no changes, therefore they fear not God.

 ²⁰He hath put forth his hands against such as be at peace with him: he hath broken his covenant.

 ²¹The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords.

 ²²Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

 ²³But thou, O God, shalt bring them down into the pit of destruction: bloody and deceitful men shall not live out half their days; but I will trust in thee. 

Psalm 56

 ¹Be merciful unto me, O God: for man would swallow me up; he fighting daily oppresseth me.

 ²Mine enemies would daily swallow me up: for they be many that fight against me, O thou most High.

 ³What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.

 ⁴In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.

 ⁵Every day they wrest my words: all their thoughts are against me for evil.

 ⁶They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps, when they wait for my soul.

 ⁷Shall they escape by iniquity? in thine anger cast down the people, O God.

 ⁸Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?

 ⁹When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me.

 ¹⁰In God will I praise his word: in the LORD will I praise his word.

 ¹¹In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me.

 ¹²Thy vows are upon me, O God: I will render praises unto thee.

 ¹³For thou hast delivered my soul from death: wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?

Psalm 61

 ¹Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer.

 ²From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

 ³For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.

 ⁴I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah.

 ⁵For thou, O God, hast heard my vows: thou hast given me the heritage of those that fear thy name.

 ⁶Thou wilt prolong the king’s life: and his years as many generations.

 ⁷He shall abide before God for ever: O prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him.

 ⁸So will I sing praise unto thy name for ever, that I may daily perform my vows.

Psalm 69

 ¹Save me, O God; for the waters are come in unto my soul.

 ²I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing: I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me.

 ³I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God.

 ⁴They that hate me without a cause are more than the hairs of mine head: they that would destroy me, being mine enemies wrongfully, are mighty: then I restored that which I took not away.

 ⁵O God, thou knowest my foolishness; and my sins are not hid from thee.

 ⁶Let not them that wait on thee, O Lord GOD of hosts, be ashamed for my sake: let not those that seek thee be confounded for my sake, O God of Israel.

 ⁷Because for thy sake I have borne reproach; shame hath covered my face.

 ⁸I am become a stranger unto my brethren, and an alien unto my mother’s children.

 ⁹For the zeal of thine house hath eaten me up; and the reproaches of them that reproached thee are fallen upon me.

 ¹⁰When I wept, and chastened my soul with fasting, that was to my reproach.

 ¹¹I made sackcloth also my garment; and I became a proverb to them.

 ¹²They that sit in the gate speak against me; and I was the song of the drunkards.

 ¹³But as for me, my prayer is unto thee, O LORD, in an acceptable time: O God, in the multitude of thy mercy hear me, in the truth of thy salvation.

 ¹⁴Deliver me out of the mire, and let me not sink: let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters.

 ¹⁵Let not the waterflood overflow me, neither let the deep swallow me up, and let not the pit shut her mouth upon me.

 ¹⁶Hear me, O LORD; for thy lovingkindness is good: turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies.

 ¹⁷And hide not thy face from thy servant; for I am in trouble: hear me speedily.

 ¹⁸Draw nigh unto my soul, and redeem it: deliver me because of mine enemies.

 ¹⁹Thou hast known my reproach, and my shame, and my dishonour: mine adversaries are all before thee.

 ²⁰Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there was none; and for comforters, but I found none.

 ²¹They gave me also gall for my meat; and in my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink.

 ²²Let their table become a snare before them: and that which should have been for their welfare, let it become a trap.

 ²³Let their eyes be darkened, that they see not; and make their loins continually to shake.

 ²⁴Pour out thine indignation upon them, and let thy wrathful anger take hold of them.

 ²⁵Let their habitation be desolate; and let none dwell in their tents.

 ²⁶For they persecute him whom thou hast smitten; and they talk to the grief of those whom thou hast wounded.

 ²⁷Add iniquity unto their iniquity: and let them not come into thy righteousness.

 ²⁸Let them be blotted out of the book of the living, and not be written with the righteous.

 ²⁹But I am poor and sorrowful: let thy salvation, O God, set me up on high.

 ³⁰I will praise the name of God with a song, and will magnify him with thanksgiving.

 ³¹This also shall please the LORD better than an ox or bullock that hath horns and hoofs.

 ³²The humble shall see this, and be glad: and your heart shall live that seek God.

 ³³For the LORD heareth the poor, and despiseth not his prisoners.

 ³⁴Let the heaven and earth praise him, the seas, and every thing that moveth therein.

 ³⁵For God will save Zion, and will build the cities of Judah: that they may dwell there, and have it in possession.

 ³⁶The seed also of his servants shall inherit it: and they that love his name shall dwell therein.

Psalm 70

 ¹MAKE HASTE, O GOD, TO DELIVER ME; MAKE HASTE TO HELP ME, O LORD.

 ²Let them be ashamed and confounded that seek after my soul: let them be turned backward, and put to confusion, that desire my hurt.

 ³Let them be turned back for a reward of their shame that say, Aha, aha.

 ⁴Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: and let such as love thy salvation say continually, Let God be magnified.

 ⁵But I am poor and needy: make haste unto me, O God: thou art my help and my deliverer; O LORD, make no tarrying.

Psalm 77

 ¹I cried unto God with my voice, even unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.

 ²In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.

 ³I remembered God, and was troubled: I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah.

 ⁴Thou holdest mine eyes waking: I am so troubled that I cannot speak.

 ⁵I have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.

 ⁶I call to remembrance my song in the night: I commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.

 ⁷Will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?

 ⁸Is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth his promise fail for evermore?

 ⁹Hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies? Selah.

 ¹⁰And I said, This is my infirmity: but I will remember the years of the right hand of the most High.

 ¹¹I will remember the works of the LORD: surely I will remember thy wonders of old.

 ¹²I will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.

 ¹³Thy way, O God, is in the sanctuary: who is so great a God as our God?

 ¹⁴Thou art the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.

 ¹⁵Thou hast with thine arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah.

 ¹⁶The waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.

 ¹⁷The clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.

 ¹⁸The voice of thy thunder was in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.

 ¹⁹Thy way is in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.

 ²⁰Thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

 Psalm 88

 ¹O lord God of my salvation, I have cried day and night before thee:

 ²Let my prayer come before thee: incline thine ear unto my cry;

 ³For my soul is full of troubles: and my life draweth nigh unto the grave.

 ⁴I am counted with them that go down into the pit: I am as a man that hath no strength:

 ⁵Free among the dead, like the slain that lie in the grave, whom thou rememberest no more: and they are cut off from thy hand.

 ⁶Thou hast laid me in the lowest pit, in darkness, in the deeps.

 ⁷Thy wrath lieth hard upon me, and thou hast afflicted me with all thy waves. Selah.

 ⁸Thou hast put away mine acquaintance far from me; thou hast made me an abomination unto them: I am shut up, and I cannot come forth.

 ⁹Mine eye mourneth by reason of affliction: LORD, I have called daily upon thee, I have stretched out my hands unto thee.

 ¹⁰Wilt thou shew wonders to the dead? shall the dead arise and praise thee? Selah.

 ¹¹Shall thy lovingkindness be declared in the grave? or thy faithfulness in destruction?

 ¹²Shall thy wonders be known in the dark? and thy righteousness in the land of forgetfulness?

 ¹³But unto thee have I cried, O LORD; and in the morning shall my prayer prevent thee.

 ¹⁴LORD, why castest thou off my soul? why hidest thou thy face from me?

 ¹⁵I am afflicted and ready to die from my youth up: while I suffer thy terrors I am distracted.

 ¹⁶Thy fierce wrath goeth over me; thy terrors have cut me off.

 ¹⁷They came round about me daily like water; they compassed me about together.

 ¹⁸Lover and friend hast thou put far from me, and mine acquaintance into darkness.

 

Psalm 102

 ¹Hear my prayer, O LORD, and let my cry come unto thee.

 ²Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily.

 ³For my days are consumed like smoke, and my bones are burned as an hearth.

 ⁴My heart is smitten, and withered like grass; so that I forget to eat my bread.

 ⁵By reason of the voice of my groaning my bones cleave to my skin.

 ⁶I am like a pelican of the wilderness: I am like an owl of the desert.

 ⁷I watch, and am as a sparrow alone upon the house top.

 ⁸Mine enemies reproach me all the day; and they that are mad against me are sworn against me.

 ⁹For I have eaten ashes like bread, and mingled my drink with weeping.

 ¹⁰Because of thine indignation and thy wrath: for thou hast lifted me up, and cast me down.

 ¹¹My days are like a shadow that declineth; and I am withered like grass.

 ¹²But thou, O LORD, shall endure for ever; and thy remembrance unto all generations.

 ¹³Thou shalt arise, and have mercy upon Zion: for the time to favour her, yea, the set time, is come.

 ¹⁴For thy servants take pleasure in her stones, and favour the dust thereof.

 ¹⁵So the heathen shall fear the name of the LORD, and all the kings of the earth thy glory.

 ¹⁶When the LORD shall build up Zion, he shall appear in his glory.

 ¹⁷He will regard the prayer of the destitute, and not despise their prayer.

 ¹⁸This shall be written for the generation to come: and the people which shall be created shall praise the LORD.

 ¹⁹For he hath looked down from the height of his sanctuary; from heaven did the LORD behold the earth;

 ²⁰To hear the groaning of the prisoner; to loose those that are appointed to death;

 ²¹To declare the name of the LORD in Zion, and his praise in Jerusalem;

 ²²When the people are gathered together, and the kingdoms, to serve the LORD.

 ²³He weakened my strength in the way; he shortened my days.

 ²⁴I said, O my God, take me not away in the midst of my days: thy years are throughout all generations.

 ²⁵Of old hast thou laid the foundation of the earth: and the heavens are the work of thy hands.

 ²⁶They shall perish, but thou shalt endure: yea, all of them shall wax old like a garment; as a vesture shalt thou change them, and they shall be changed:

 ²⁷But thou art the same, and thy years shall have no end.

 ²⁸The children of thy servants shall continue, and their seed shall be established before thee.

Psalm 120

 ¹In my distress I cried unto the LORD, and he heard me.

 ²Deliver my soul, O LORD, from lying lips, and from a deceitful tongue.

 ³What shall be given unto thee? or what shall be done unto thee, thou false tongue?

 ⁴Sharp arrows of the mighty, with coals of juniper.

 ⁵Woe is me, that I sojourn in Mesech, that I dwell in the tents of Kedar!

 ⁶My soul hath long dwelt with him that hateth peace.

 ⁷I am for peace: but when I speak, they are for war.

Psalm 129

 ¹Many a time have they afflicted me from my youth, may Israel now say:

 ²Many a time have they afflicted me from my youth: yet they have not prevailed against me.

 ³The plowers plowed upon my back: they made long their furrows.

 ⁴The LORD is righteous: he hath cut asunder the cords of the wicked.

 ⁵Let them all be confounded and turned back that hate Zion.

 ⁶Let them be as the grass upon the housetops, which withereth afore it groweth up:

 ⁷Wherewith the mower filleth not his hand; nor he that bindeth sheaves his bosom.

 ⁸Neither do they which go by say, The blessing of the LORD be upon you: we bless you in the name of the LORD.

Psalm 141

 ¹Lord, I cry unto thee: make haste unto me; give ear unto my voice, when I cry unto thee.

 ²Let my prayer be set forth before thee as incense; and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice.

 ³Set a watch, O LORD, before my mouth; keep the door of my lips.

 ⁴Incline not my heart to any evil thing, to practise wicked works with men that work iniquity: and let me not eat of their dainties.

 ⁵Let the righteous smite me; it shall be a kindness: and let him reprove me; it shall be an excellent oil, which shall not break my head: for yet my prayer also shall be in their calamities.

 ⁶When their judges are overthrown in stony places, they shall hear my words; for they are sweet.

 ⁷Our bones are scattered at the grave’s mouth, as when one cutteth and cleaveth wood upon the earth.

 ⁸But mine eyes are unto thee, O GOD the Lord: in thee is my trust; leave not my soul destitute.

 ⁹Keep me from the snares which they have laid for me, and the gins of the workers of iniquity.

 ¹⁰Let the wicked fall into their own nets, whilst that I withal escape.

Psalm 142

 ¹I cried unto the LORD with my voice; with my voice unto the LORD did I make my supplication.

 ²I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble.

 ³When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me.

 ⁴I looked on my right hand, and beheld, but there was no man that would know me: refuge failed me; no man cared for my soul.

 ⁵I cried unto thee, O LORD: I said, Thou art my refuge and my portion in the land of the living.

 ⁶Attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low: deliver me from my persecutors; for they are stronger than I.

 ⁷Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.

 Times of tears and stress in your life can be spent in many ways. You can cry your heart into a pillow. You can live on life numbly and pretend that all is fine in the world. Or, you can accept the stress and seek something to pull you past it. In my case, it is these psalms. It is God. I’m sorry for boring you to death with these but they are here for reference for the broken-hearted, for the lost-souls, for all those who have given up. Scream these to the Lord, and He shall hear, and your spirit shall feel filled with tears. But after your cry, look inside and see your lightened heart. When nobody else is, God is here.

Psalm 38

A psalm of David. A petition.

 ¹ LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
   or discipline me in your wrath.
² Your arrows have pierced me,
   and your hand has come down on me.
³ Because of your wrath there is no health in my body;
   there is no soundness in my bones because of my sin.
⁴ My guilt has overwhelmed me
   like a burden too heavy to bear.

 ⁵ My wounds fester and are loathsome
   because of my sinful folly.
⁶ I am bowed down and brought very low;
   all day long I go about mourning.
⁷ My back is filled with searing pain;
   there is no health in my body.
⁸ I am feeble and utterly crushed;
   I groan in anguish of heart.

 ⁹ All my longings lie open before you, Lord;
   my sighing is not hidden from you.
¹⁰ My heart pounds, my strength fails me;
   even the light has gone from my eyes.
¹¹ My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds;
   my neighbors stay far away.
¹² Those who want to kill me set their traps,
   those who would harm me talk of my ruin;
   all day long they scheme and lie.

 ¹³ I am like the deaf, who cannot hear,
   like the mute, who cannot speak;
¹⁴ I have become like one who does not hear,
   whose mouth can offer no reply.
¹⁵ LORD, I wait for you;
   you will answer, Lord my God.
¹⁶ For I said, “Do not let them gloat
   or exalt themselves over me when my feet slip.”

 ¹⁷ For I am about to fall,
   and my pain is ever with me.
¹⁸ I confess my iniquity;
   I am troubled by my sin.
¹⁹ Many have become my enemies without cause^[b];
   those who hate me without reason are numerous.
²⁰ Those who repay my good with evil
   lodge accusations against me,
   though I seek only to do what is good.

 ²¹ LORD, do not forsake me;
   do not be far from me, my God.
²² Come quickly to help me,
   my Lord and my Savior.

 

Things are not going so happy right now in my life… so I’ve decided to reread through the pslams. This is one of quite a few that I said aloud for the Lord to hear.

I Can Post From A Computer…

I’m just LAZY.

I WANNA SEE!!!!!

A Really Good Day (^_^)